tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63988930724803822722023-11-15T09:21:57.356-08:00Lemon Tart LifeSuch a sweet, sour, tangy and just all-around delicious life we live... from poetry and cooking to movie and book reviews, from baby updates to philosophies of family and spiritual adventures... enjoy the wide, tangential ride.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.comBlogger463125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-2008587648504420822012-10-14T21:30:00.000-07:002012-10-14T21:30:45.944-07:00Disappointments...It can be difficult, at times, to manage one's disappointments in a way that is neither self-indulgent nor abusive of others' goodwill... I have a particularly difficult time not acting like a petulant child who has been denied a treat when I find myself disappointed, and it just makes life that much more unpleasant when I do so. I found out this week that I had been overly confident of my ability to win the coveted and much-needed job offer from the City... instead, I was notified that I had been placed on the wait list for up to twelve months, and might have a slight chance that they would call me back at some time during the ensuing year. My hopes had been so desperately and passionately pinned to that job that it was crushing to read the email and realize I am still so many steps away from reaching my goals.<br />
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There were so many things I had hoped would come along with that job, and not just the usual ones related to career, professional development, intellectual challenges, and so on. I also wanted some perks-- things like being able to buy Ethan more than one pair of closed-toe shoes, or a windbreaker that fits, or hold-on-let-me-catch-my-breath maybe even take him someplace nice like the zoo, or camping, or (gasp!) the ocean.<br />
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There are moments when I feel overwhelmed by how much we pay out in regular bills and owe in student loans and how little we bring in, and in those moments my future stretches out in front of me so bleak, so full of struggle that I feel like breaking down in tears. I want more for my son than this life of eking out an existence and praying to make rent each month. Then there are those times when I see how much more we have than so many millions of other families, and I want to stop my whinging and complaining and just relish the simple joys of a healthy child with a functional body and mind...<br />
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I want to learn acceptance, and serenity, and gratitude... I want to be happy for what I have without accepting less than what we deserve and need... I want to keep striving for more without being constantly barraged with feelings of unhappiness and dissatisfaction from not having reached a goal within a certain time frame... perhaps I need a life coach of some sort, someone who can help me restrain my yearnings a bit and help me become more content and less aware of the feeling of "not" having/being/doing...<br />
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Time for a soul search.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-54208378736817838702012-10-04T18:10:00.000-07:002012-10-04T18:10:24.953-07:00Interview...The City posted an opening for an HR Analyst in August. They received 500 applications. They culled those down to 100, then invited the lucky group to test in September. They then chipped that number down to 24, set up two teams of interviewers, and conducted all of the interviews today. I was lucky enough to be part of that group! I think it went well, but then I'm not the best judge of interview success... time will tell- they said I should hear back within the next 10 days or so.<br />
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Fingers crossed!!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-84041793357713904892012-09-26T12:28:00.001-07:002012-09-26T12:32:41.059-07:00I'm back!After a long hiatus while I worked on my Masters Degree this past year, I am happy to announce that I'm back on blog patrol. Oh, and I've finished my MBA with Human Resource Management specialization, too. :)<br />
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It's good to be writing again... and even better that fall is finally here and the scent of October is in the air. This year we will be taking Ethan trick-or-treating with some friends on Halloween night (a Wednesday), and the weekend before Joel & I will be going to an event in San Francisco, hosted by Opel. I still haven't decided on my outfit, but can't wait to figure out what our costumes will be... will it involve my newest acquisition, the most adorable hair-couture I've ever seen?<br />
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Time shall tell...
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Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-73063274677371557832012-01-21T20:22:00.000-08:002012-01-21T20:25:32.853-08:00Corporate Accounting, or "Hell."This class is killing my self esteem. I used to think I was pretty bright, but now I have doubts. I've managed to maintain a 4.0 in all of my graduate courses since March 2011, but this one is going to make or break me. I think, in fact, that it will be the one to change my GPA. I've felt challenged before, and I've even felt clueless, but never this boneheaded. I just can't seem to wrap my brain around the financial principles and accounting figures, the endless calculations and formulas that make no logical sense to me. I am more comfortable with the theories, dialogue, analysis and research than with these numbers that dance around along the edges of my understanding. I need help. Big time.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-86747973457913491062012-01-14T14:32:00.001-08:002012-01-14T14:35:49.766-08:00Nightmare about death.I had the most horrible, vivid, graphic nightmare early this morning that is still on my mind. Every time I think about it I get upset again and even start crying... I'll write more about it later, but for now just now that it ended with my husband and child (and I think, myself) being murdered. I looked up some information today online to help process this a bit and found a website with some interesting insights (from http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/death/):<br /><br />"Death of child: Dreaming that your child dies can have several meanings. In some dreams a parent, much to their horror dreams of killing their child; or as one dreamer said, “I saw him jump off a bridge to his death.” This occurred at a time when her young son was making his first moves toward independence, and it was a difficult thing for the mother to face – the loss of her son. So it can easily be shown as the death of ones child in a dream. Another women describes it differently as follows:<br /><br />‘I am standing outside a supermarket with heavy bags wearing my Mac, though the sun is warm. My daughter and two friends are playing music and everyone stops to listen. I start to write a song for them, but they pack up and go on a bus whilst I am still writing. I am left alone at the bus stop with my heavy burden of shopping, feeling incredibly unwanted.’ Mrs F<br /><br />Mrs F was dreaming about her young daughter leaving her, and she has to grieve it, almost like a death.<br /><br />This can mean a lot of other things than your actual child dying. For instance a man told me a dream that worried him enormously about walking with his wife and his young son fell down a hole and was apparently dead. But in fact he had had a terrible row with his wife that day, and it was showing the child as what they had created between them. In fact the dream child recovered as did their marriage.<br /><br />Your child dying can also be a warning that your inner child is dying. We each carry some awful memories from childhood that are shown in our dreams as our child. So it is worth taking hold of your apparently dead child – nothing can actually die in our dreams – and hold it and tell it you love it. Watch any feelings that emerge as you do this and any tears you shed. See what you understand from what you feel.<br /><br />Of course this could be a ‘mother’s’ dream in which your terror of losing your child is dreamt. A woman ones told me a dream in which her daughter was murdered. As we helped the woman explore her dream – not interpret it – she burst out into enormous sobs, crying that her daughter was leaving home and she was terrified of losing her. The girl was never murdered.<br /><br />So ask yourself what your fears are about.<br /><br />But our dream child can represent many things, and it is useful to realise that any person, object or scene in a dream is not a symbol – it is not dead thing that has to be interpreted - it is a living part of you and can only be understood by relating to it. So in this way I have found that a child can represent whatever our strongest feelings about them are. It can represent your marriage or partnership because it is what you have created between you. In that case the death of the child can depict something like an awful argument that feels as if the marriage has died.<br /><br />A child and its death can also show you how you have killed out the growing or adventurous side of you; or if you see your child as vulnerable and needing protection, it could show you the death of that part of your feelings.<br /><br />So you need to ask yourself what your dream child depicts as a living part of you."<br />Copyright © 1999-2010 Tony Crisp | All rights reservedLemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-31036015925799131012012-01-11T18:45:00.000-08:002012-01-11T19:24:03.864-08:00Daycare Reimbursement!!I finally figured out how this FSA thing works... which means more money back in my pocket! The Flexible Spending Account is an optional benefit offered through our new Human Resources contractor. Basically, money is deducted pre-taxes from my paycheck, thus reducing my annual pay--and the amount I get taxed-- by a significant amount. I can deduct up to $5,000 per year for childcare expenses, which is easy to do when I'm paying $120 per week. [BTW: That is an extremely reasonable rate, and Janet is a wonderful carer, so I'm very happy with Ethan in her home.] Anyhow, for a bit there I was getting a reduced paycheck *and* was unable to access the funds being set aside for daycare, which I still had to pay... I was basically paying double daycare for the past month. Ouch! This week, I was able to get all of the correct forms filled out, with the help of my husband and Miss Janet, and submitted them to the benefit claims department on Monday. On Wednesday, I was notified that they had already processed my claim and were transferring it to my bank account via direct deposit. How awesome (and fast!) is that?<br /><br />Now I can use the money to either (a) get my car's smog check and registration taken care of, or (b) put together with another $200 to pay for tickets to Burning Man. Hmm....Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-89474931790830535122012-01-06T21:19:00.001-08:002012-01-06T21:34:02.124-08:00Firsts... and not.To start, I'll give you a "not" first-- I got yet another Thanks-but-no-thanks letter from SCOE regarding my application to become a program assistant/secretary. Yes, you read that right-- apparently, I'm not even qualified to do the job I'm doing now as an administrative assistant. Is this why I'm paying for those student loans??<br /><br />On another note, we reached a First of sorts with Ethan this week. Very early Friday morning, I woke up to the sound of a click or knock of some sort, and looked over with my groggy, 4 a.m. is way too early for this stuff, eyes to see a light on in our hallway. A light that wasn't on a mere four hours earlier, when I went to bed. I shoved Joel and said "What the <heck> is happening?!?" and pointed at the light like it was a five-legged alien about to do some serious abduction maneuvers. He went into the hallway and found Ethan had gone into the bathroom to go potty, turned on the light, and handled his business. Wow! I was impressed, despite my sleepiness. Then he saw me and said "Mom, hold me!" and I realized my night was just beginning.<br /><br />We went to lay down together in the living room, where he wanted to watch TV. I said no and we started to go to sleep when he said "My tummy hurts." I asked him if he was hungry and he said yes, so I got some crackers. I know, I know, not the best response, but sometimes you do what you gotta do. Anyway, he calmed down and I took him back to his room to lay down with his crackers. Not half an hour later, just as I had fallen deeply into my "Please God let my alarm not go off any minute" sleep phase, I woke to hear panicked cries and coughing coming from his room. The first thing that ran through my mind was that he was choking or gagging on his crackers. I ran in there and found him making spitting sounds, so I thought at first that he had spit out whatever he was choking on. Then I turned on the hallway light to see better-- and realized he had been throwing up. All over his favorite/only embroidered "Turkish" style pillow and his bed. My poor thing! I've never seen him do that before!<br /><br />He was so scared by the very act of having vomited that he kept crying and half-screaming for help for several minutes. He kept saying "Mom, I was coughing and then I was spitting and it was all on my blanket" and so on... poor thing. It must be so frightening to have your body just rebel like that. Anyway... we cleaned him up and basically stayed up with him. Three and a little hours later, he seemed much better, so Joel took him to daycare. Whoops. She called me by 10:30 saying he had thrown up again-- and it was a lot. A ton. A huge amount. Poor things, all of them! I left work to take him home and take care of him, and all seemed to be going well until this evening. He'd finally taken in some crackers and juice, and then walked back to go potty when-- again-- the keening cries rang out from the bathroom. I ran down to find him standing on the potty, wailing, and when I got there, it happened-- projectile vomit, which I proceeded to catch like it was liquid gold. What the?!? <br /><br />My poor boy... He threw up everything he'd just eaten/drank, and was miserable the whole time. I feel so bad for him! He's never thrown up before, so this is all new to me... a friend suggested ginger-peach tea, so I'm going to shop for it tomorrow. I just feel so helpless about it all. I wish I could give him medicine to make it all better! :(Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-70016941370466064382011-11-30T21:04:00.000-08:002011-11-30T21:09:56.232-08:00When it rains...This Monday, I took a qualifying test for the Stanislaus County Office of Education as part of the process of being considered for a program secretary job. It pays just about the same as I'm making at my current job, but there are a few differences-- first, there are no evening meetings. What a blessing that would be! Second, it is in the Human Resources department, which is where I'd eventually like to end up. It could be a stepping stone type of position for me, and once I'm in I'd be able to apply for in-house vacancies that are not open to the general public. Keeping my fingers crossed on that one...<br /><br />Then, this afternoon I checked the mail and found a letter from the Housing Authority of Stanislaus County, responding to a job I applied for in-- get this-- December 2010. What the?! Apparently, I made it through the first round of eliminations and have been selected to participate in a pre-qualifying test next Tuesday. Talk about waiting a little while to hear back from someone! I don't even have the copy of the original application that I sent it, because I just went through my old "Jobs Applied For" file and tossed everything older than 2011. Well, I guess this means that I've still got a few options on the board. Woo-hoo!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-20371087487452703052011-11-29T08:00:00.000-08:002011-11-29T08:00:09.915-08:00Gentle hands.This weekend, I had the most amazing experience while putting Ethan to bed. We had finished our usual ritual of bedtime story (current favorite: Little Book of Mother Goose Rhymes), bedtime song (Itsy Bitsy Spider and my original "Ethan's Lullaby"-- which I've been humming or singing to him since he was born), and bedtime hugs and kisses, when the atmosphere suddenly changed... I was leaning over him giving one last kiss goodnight, when he reached up and gently stroked my cheek. Then, he touched his own cheek in the same area, before stretching out his arm again and stroking my other cheek and then his own. He continued to do this sort of mirror-touching until he'd gone over our cheeks, foreheads, lips, and chins, all the while gazing into my eyes.<br /><br />It was so moving and surreal and introspective; I kept wondering what exactly he was thinking, and what this experience meant for him... after he'd finally had enough, he pulled me down for one last kiss and said "'Night, mommy," before rolling over to face the wall. I left there and couldn't stop thinking about that strange, interesting, genuine experience we'd shared. What a precious gift from my little boy.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-4698015596075049922011-11-28T12:38:00.000-08:002011-11-28T12:42:23.478-08:00Birthday week.Had a great birthday. Joel upgraded my Kindle e-reader to a Kindle Fire, and I love it. Not necessarily for reading, though; more for the extras, like all of the apps and games and netflix and so on. My new "toy." :)<br /><br />We celebrated Thanksgiving with Julie's family, at the usual potluck with lots of birthday shots (my new fave liquor: Stoli Chocolate Razberi vodka, yum!) and delicious ham with sweet potatoes... low key, great friends, and not much drama. Just wish Ethan had more buddies around his age.<br /><br />Speaking of Ethan, we couldn't go anywhere over the long weekend because he was sick, poor thing. Even had to miss his buddy Chase's birthday party at Funworks, boo hiss.<br /><br />I've got to come to terms with the idea of not having another child... and quick, too, before I "accidentally" take matters into my own hands and end up regretting it.<br /><br />Sayonara little ones, more later.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-32577267825328991012011-11-21T22:19:00.000-08:002011-11-21T22:25:23.802-08:00Nightmare.Ethan woke up crying out in terror at 2:40 a.m. I ran into his room and knelt next to his bed, stroking his back and murmuring comforting words while he cried, begging me to get rid of the bugs. I assured him there were no bugs on him, and he said "No, mommy! The bugs are on daddy!" I told him daddy was asleep in bed and he said, again, "NO, mommy! Daddy fell down on the bed and now he's all red and covered with bugs!" That sent a shiver up my spine. What a terrifying image to have in his little head! It took him about 45 minutes to fall asleep again... and most of that time I spent wrapped up in his arms while he tried to calm down. Poor thing. :(Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-30988990318432140732011-11-17T23:33:00.000-08:002011-11-17T23:39:53.778-08:00Wow. Long time, No blog.So much has happened since the last time I was on here!<br />To sum up:<br />- My parents have moved-- yet again-- but this time they're in senior housing. Next stop after this: Assisted living, primarily for my mom. Guess this means we're all getting older...<br /><br />- My little baby boy has graduated into toddlerhood and now has (basically) mastered a major rite of passage: potty-training. Most mornings he wakes up with a nice, dry bed... and most days he has no accidents. Today, he had his biggest accomplishment yet: he went into the bathroom, took down his pants and underwear, climbed onto the potty-seat, and went potty-- pee *and* poop!-- all by himself. That was the first time he has pooped of his own volition in the right place; up til now he was struggling with that one. I'm so very proud of him!<br /><br />- This weekend, Joel & I go to the City to hang out, visit our favorite spots, check out Hobson's Choice and the vintage stores and then attend Blackout SF to see DJ Drag'nfly (among others) and dance all night. Can't wait. :)<br /><br />Anyway, I'm sure there's more, but it's these long, drawn-out posts that make me reluctant to keep up with my blog, so I'll stop there. Short, fast, and sweet-- like the apple pie pops I made tonight. Yurm....Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-37185848078631999392011-10-14T06:44:00.000-07:002011-10-14T07:02:51.496-07:00Spondylo-what??My neck pain started up again on Sunday, after my body shifted a little bit while driving over a small bump in the road. The minute my body bent to one side while my neck listed in the opposite direction, I knew it was going to be ugly. I said "Oh no!" and Joel immediately reached over to touch my neck. It was just a twinge at first, but got worse until I could hardly turn my head to the left. I can't bend it at all to the left, but now I can actually turn it fairly well, which makes driving much easier. Still, I have a lot of stiffness, which means reversing out of a parking space is kind of a challenge.<br /><br />When I told my doctor about it, she recommended coming in for an x-ray. The results showed that I have a mild spondyloarthropathy of the lower cervical spine with muscle spasm. What a mouthful! I'll be doing some more research to find out what exactly this means, but meanwhile I have a physical therapy appointment next Tuesday. And I can't wait!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-14261880560265742142011-09-27T21:01:00.000-07:002011-09-27T21:07:47.801-07:00Disheartened.I find it so difficult to deal with my husband's intimacy and other relationship issues. I'm not sure whether they stem from his childhood experiences with a father who abandoned his large family, or if it's just a special sort of self-centeredness and selfishness innate to the male gender, but JEEZ LOUISE it's frustrating as hell. I know that I've met other men who are very "into" their families or spouses or kids-- guys who are enthralled by their wives, who look forward to time alone with their child, who actually enjoy being in a family... and I wish that my husband was more like that. Why is it so hard for him to see me & Ethan as just as important as himself?<br /><br />Take tonight, for instance... he comes home half an hour early from class. Does he think, "Oh, great! I get to see my son before he goes to sleep for once this week!" or even, "Well, Melanie takes care of Ethan every single day after work while I'm in school until after bedtime, so maybe tonight I could step in and take care of tooth-brushing or story time and put my son to bed..." Of course not. He actually told me tonight "I'm still on school time! This is my time to study." HELLO! As if I'm not in school full-time, too? As if I'm not working full-time, and also taking care of Ethan too??<br /><br />Whatever. I'm just so bugged by the whole thing I can't talk about it.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-73255783333752379182011-09-26T15:09:00.000-07:002011-09-26T15:27:36.082-07:00Fall Camping-- reviewWe had a great time camping with Ethan and his aunt Stefanie this September, but I believe much of it was due to the fact that Joel's brother let us borrow his camper-van. I mean, it didn't have a functioning heater, A/C, fridge, stove, or bathroom, but it DID have a way to sleep inside away from the bugs, rocks, noise, and cold of outside. Ethan definitely loved it, especially the fact that it had a DVD player and he was able to kick back inside in his carseat and watch "How to Train Your Dragon" for the thousandth time. What an easy-to-please boy!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-DaheN1yIJ_k/ToD7YsHvMwI/AAAAAAAAAFs/d1FNLy9-SzQ/s1600/CIMG4798%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-DaheN1yIJ_k/ToD7YsHvMwI/AAAAAAAAAFs/d1FNLy9-SzQ/s400/CIMG4798%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5656797533556388610" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-sfK1w7hC2rQ/ToD71qwv4yI/AAAAAAAAAF8/hb5D-PcRRr4/s1600/CIMG4797%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-sfK1w7hC2rQ/ToD71qwv4yI/AAAAAAAAAF8/hb5D-PcRRr4/s400/CIMG4797%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5656798031407735586" /></a>I don't consider myself a pampered princess by any stretch of the imagination, but I do find myself becoming more and more reluctant to suffer unnecessarily. I'm happy to rough it, but even happier if I can actually sleep without pain... in this case, from the very uncomfortable sleeping area in the camper-van. I thought it would be more like our old RV, which we slept in wonderfully last year at Burning Man. Instead, I could hardly sleep at all because of the pain in my right hip from pressing into the hard platform all night. Add to that the fact that Ethan was sleeping between Joel and me and kept turning his body perpendicular to us, so that his head was resting on Joel's arm and his feet were kicking into my chest or stomach all night. Man, that kid is an active sleeper! I woke up in the morning and could hardly walk. It was pretty painful; thank goodness we remembered to bring ibuprofen, because a couple of hours later I was well enough to go back out for another hike/walk with everyone.<br /><br />All in all, it was a great weekend, and I'm glad we were able to go. It was worth missing out on homework time to get in some great family time. :)<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-VD3hnBluRto/ToD67VgoqXI/AAAAAAAAAFk/o0YtWuUTBZU/s1600/CIMG4808%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-VD3hnBluRto/ToD67VgoqXI/AAAAAAAAAFk/o0YtWuUTBZU/s400/CIMG4808%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5656797029270595954" /></a>Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-11593970229139888242011-09-22T19:49:00.000-07:002011-09-22T19:54:25.658-07:00Hair Chop<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-g6rTDsU8b8U/Tnv0aZol7tI/AAAAAAAAAFM/CtAK2SUuWEQ/s1600/melethan2_09-19-11.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 339px; height: 400px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-g6rTDsU8b8U/Tnv0aZol7tI/AAAAAAAAAFM/CtAK2SUuWEQ/s400/melethan2_09-19-11.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5655382491488710354" /></a><br />I love my little man... especially with his new haircut. It was getting so long recently that he was complaining about his hair hurting his eyes. Now, I know Joel wanted him to grow it out just like his daddy did when <span style="font-style:italic;">he</span> was a little boy, but come on-- if it's interfering with your vision, it's way too long.<br /><br />So the other day, when I was cutting Joel's hair, Ethan got all excited about getting his own haircut and I took advantage of the opportunity to shear his locks. Sure, it's choppy in some areas-- but he's still gorgeous!<br /><br />This is one of the best things about motherhood-- being able to experience this pure, joyous, whole-hearted love and share it openly with your child. I feel so blessed.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-27983164803185572122011-09-16T21:44:00.000-07:002011-09-16T22:07:32.801-07:00Camping Trip!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-PVEox0QN9NI/TnQq8L7k6MI/AAAAAAAAAFE/2RZKmnXKjrM/s1600/creek.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-PVEox0QN9NI/TnQq8L7k6MI/AAAAAAAAAFE/2RZKmnXKjrM/s400/creek.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5653190645740005570" /></a>We borrowed a camper-van from Joel's brother and plan to head up towards Pinecrest-Strawberry on Saturday morning for some camping adventures with Ethan and Stefanie. I've packed everything (I think) except Joel's stuff and the refrigerated food, so we're pretty much ready to go as soon as Joel has his stuff ready.<br /><br />I can't wait! I love camping, but can't stand freezing to death or sleeping on top of rocks/bugs, so the camper-van seems perfect. Especially when we're bringing Ethan with us... just can't imagine tent-camping with an almost-three-year-old.<br /><br />The camper-van also seems to be ideal for Burning Man trips... which puts all sorts of little thoughts in my head for next year. :)Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-18211489576677842212011-09-15T15:07:00.000-07:002011-09-15T15:07:00.159-07:00"Lovey" Pants<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JiSAtcLP3_o/Tm0xgyAIOXI/AAAAAAAAAE8/fXax073A6bg/s1600/CIMG4792%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JiSAtcLP3_o/Tm0xgyAIOXI/AAAAAAAAAE8/fXax073A6bg/s400/CIMG4792%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5651227546667727218" /></a><br />For the first two years of his life, Ethan had a crocheted baby blue blanket (made for him by our friend Vy Kamrar) that he carried around, pulled apart, and loved nearly to pieces. Just before his second birthday, it "disappeared" into a memory box I'm keeping for him. Since then, he hasn't really found a replacement lovey... until now.<br /><br />Now, his security item (seen clutched to his chest in this photo) is a pair of tan pajama pants patterned with images of construction vehicles like tow trucks, cement trucks, and caterpillars. He loves those things. He carries them everywhere. And I mean, everywhere. We took him to Ikea once and almost left them behind on a kitchen display-- I thought I was going to have a heart attack, running around from showroom to showroom trying to find them. <br /><br />He sleeps with them bunched up next to him on the bed, too, and sometimes even gets to wear them to sleep in when it's not too hot at night. I'm trying to find a pair that will fit him when it gets colder... any suggestions would be most appreciated!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-71237583732589920422011-09-13T05:46:00.000-07:002011-09-13T05:55:57.072-07:00School BluesI am feeling so overwhelmed and tired from all of this schoolwork. My current class, Business Law, is intensive and requires about twice or even three times as much effort and participation as my previous courses. This week, for instance, our reading assignment is for 8 chapters-- EIGHT-- which are supposed to be read, understood, and processed before you can even turn in the first assignment on Day 3 of the week. Then there are the two case study discussion posts, citing case law and precedents, then responding to at least two (the minimum required to get a C grade) but preferably more other students' discussion posts... that's per Case Study. So I post two essays, then respond to 2-4 other essays, initiating a discussion in which I'm expected to respond to their responses (and the instructor's) as well.<br /><br />And that's not even getting started on the weekly paper. Or the term paper. Or the fact that this goes on every week for six weeks until the next class begins. There are no breaks until school ends next August with my graduation. Ugh! Too bad I'm not rich enough to stay home and do this instead of working 8 hrs a day, then coming home to be mom (and dad, because Joel's in school every weeknight until after Ethan's in bed) to a 2 1/2 year old every night. I get to work on schoolwork either during break time or lunch at work, or after Ethan goes to sleep. It's a struggle, but I have to keep reminding myself of why I'm doing it... this is so that we can get on the path to where we want to be with our careers, our family, our home, and our future. Just have to keep that thought up front and center to stay motivated!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-62073813909363865592011-09-12T14:58:00.000-07:002011-09-12T14:58:00.295-07:00Barbecue Time<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-E9PnI4_Szfw/Tm0vVAalL_I/AAAAAAAAAEs/wqbGCbM2coI/s1600/CIMG4795%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-E9PnI4_Szfw/Tm0vVAalL_I/AAAAAAAAAEs/wqbGCbM2coI/s400/CIMG4795%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5651225145355087858" /></a><br /><br />I threw together some veggies (bell pepper, mushrooms, red onion) and some chicken and pineapple meatballs and used our fish-rack to grill them up...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-VJEVqzxzf-I/Tm0vozpgeUI/AAAAAAAAAE0/HX1srSY2QVs/s1600/CIMG4796%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-VJEVqzxzf-I/Tm0vozpgeUI/AAAAAAAAAE0/HX1srSY2QVs/s400/CIMG4796%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5651225485525416258" /></a><br /><br />Ah, sweet, delicious perfection! Between the two of us we ate almost everything. Time for Round 2 yet?Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-68937849546935812012011-09-10T07:40:00.001-07:002011-09-10T07:48:04.242-07:00Pool Boy<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-XTkwT5t4Yzc/Tmt39VA_TlI/AAAAAAAAAEc/vneplCbOfaY/s1600/Ethan%2Bloves%2Bthe%2Bpool%2B8-11%2B%2528Large%2529.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-XTkwT5t4Yzc/Tmt39VA_TlI/AAAAAAAAAEc/vneplCbOfaY/s400/Ethan%2Bloves%2Bthe%2Bpool%2B8-11%2B%2528Large%2529.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5650742052963438162" /></a><br />It seems that August fairly passed me by with so few posts that you hardly know what happened! Well, for starters, Ethan (re)discovered that he loves his pool.<br /><br />We got it at Target on sale for only $15... and what a great "toy"! It has a slide, two pools, and can be hooked up to a hose so that water gently (or not so gently) sprays out of the tops of the two palm trees. He adores it. Not so much getting tons of water in his face, but maybe that'll just take getting used to.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-1jkMjYAolEc/Tmt4KylnTvI/AAAAAAAAAEk/r2MDJvVFvrU/s1600/Ethan%2Bpool%2Bsplash%2B8-11%2B%2528Large%2529.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-1jkMjYAolEc/Tmt4KylnTvI/AAAAAAAAAEk/r2MDJvVFvrU/s400/Ethan%2Bpool%2Bsplash%2B8-11%2B%2528Large%2529.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5650742284239982322" /></a><br />For now, he's happy as a clam whenever he's in the water.<br /><br />In fact, he's started practicing laying back in his bathtub when the water is only a few inches deep... he'll say "Lay down, mom?" and then slowly lower himself backwards into the water, giggling and gasping the whole time, until he's flat on his back. About two seconds later, he's squirming to get up.<br /><br />I can't WAIT to take him in for swim lessons next year! :)Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-16538506747729294192011-08-20T22:48:00.000-07:002011-08-20T22:55:41.559-07:00Hide Out<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-gCAF-7quaNg/TlCcpiMODII/AAAAAAAAAD8/sxFok-aG92A/s1600/IMG_2259%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-gCAF-7quaNg/TlCcpiMODII/AAAAAAAAAD8/sxFok-aG92A/s400/IMG_2259%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5643182570461858946" /></a>
<br />Ethan's favorite hiding place is in the triangle formed where the smaller couch angles out from the gate around my computer area to the brick fireplace. He goes back there when he wants privacy for things like, oh, I don't know, trying to open a medicine bottle he somehow filched from the counter, or opening up colored markers he just found, or perhaps even attempting to avoid going to the bathroom for potty-time by taking care of it solo...
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<br />Sometimes I'll notice him running back there and that's my cue to take him back for potty-training time, and other times I'll know it's time to check for stray silverware, permanent markers, or other contraband items. He gets suspiciously quiet every time he's hiding, too, which is a big red flag in itself. Still... if he just has to have a hidey-spot, I'm glad it's out in the main room and that he's usually a good sport about getting found back there. Now, if only I had my own hide-out...
<br />Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-85756063588517994602011-08-15T22:43:00.000-07:002011-08-15T22:49:27.256-07:00Potty successes!Ethan is finally starting to get the hang of this potty training thing... Tonight, for instance, he was in the bath and started passing gas, then looked up at me with this sort of pensive, thoughtful expression, as if waiting for something. I asked him, "Do you have to go poo-poo?" He replied, "Umm..." So I told him, "Why don't you try to go on the potty?" and lifted him up onto the seat. About 30 seconds later, he said "Mom, I did it." And he was right! I praised him to the skies, and he even got on the phone to tell Daddy what he'd just accomplished. He was so excited! He even got to wipe, and flush, and wash his hands just like a big boy. His big reward? Going through the car wash with Daddy tomorrow.
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<br />Later, he spoke on the phone with his aunt Fie (Stefanie) and told her the story as well. Then, after putting him to bed, he called me in three more times to help him get up and go potty on the toilet. He's so excited about it now, and I'm so proud of his efforts. Next step is that we'll have to make the bathroom more accessible so that he can get in there and do his thing whenever he needs to, with or without mommy being right there. I can't believe he's growing up so fast!Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-88011801321274653692011-08-14T21:47:00.000-07:002011-08-14T21:52:59.850-07:00Accounting AttackI have finally reached the limits of my understanding. This Accounting class has taught me that I'm not as smart as I think I am. I just can't seem to wrap my head around the numbers, the formulas, the ratios and calculations and percentages that seem to be hiding on every next page, multiplying in the dark recesses of the book and laughing at my inept attempts at comprehension. This reminds me of when I was taking chemistry, organic chemistry, cellular molecular biology, and other horribly difficult classes at CSU Stanislaus back in the late 1990s. I thought I wanted to be a botanist, because I'd had one great class with an excellent instructor who really encouraged me to live up to my potential... without knowing, of course, that most of my success in that class was due to the fact that so much of it was writing and drawing rather than math-related. Once math came in to the picture, as it tends to do when you're studying science, my goose was cooked.
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<br />So here we are, the succulent aroma of cooked goose once again wafting through the room, and all because of accounting. Who knew I'd get the same whipping by a math-based class twice in one lifetime? You'd think I'd have learned my lesson the first time!
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<br />Yet the show must go on. Time to carve up that goose and make a meal of it, then get back in the trenches and do my best to hammer this stuff into my brain cells. Eventually, I'll get it, right?
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<br />Right?Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6398893072480382272.post-12353663248909126032011-08-09T20:53:00.000-07:002011-08-09T20:58:00.940-07:00Snap to it<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-m1_DJ8ANaeA/TkIBFY3T32I/AAAAAAAAAD0/am8pXoeRIh4/s1600/CIMG4616%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-m1_DJ8ANaeA/TkIBFY3T32I/AAAAAAAAAD0/am8pXoeRIh4/s400/CIMG4616%2B%2528Large%2529.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5639070875506696034" /></a>
<br />Ethan loves baked snap peas. He loves them with a passion usually reserved for M&Ms or soda, and he likes to share them with his toy trucks whenever possible. (The trucks don't seem to like the snap peas as much, for some reason.) They're one of the only vegetables he eats, at this point, so I'm happy to have at least one green thing going down his gullet. And they actually taste good, too! They even have "Caesar" flavored ones, which are quite tasty either straight out of the bag (his preference) or on salads. So I say munch on, little one! These critters'll do until you broaden your palate a bit.Lemonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02321956830272646605noreply@blogger.com2